Broken.

In the last few days, I have felt the love of a true friend, the loathing is a chimera, I found out secrets kept from me... not intentionally but because of fear my reaction to knowing them. I have felt extremes that I think I may never understand but one thing for sure, it has changed me. One can never know the one thing that is meant to break them until it actually happens.

I thought that it would be the secrets... I was wrong. How i feel, I believe if i meant to know something, i will learn it when i am meant to. take your sweet time, but lie to me... about something I am passionate about, lie that you love me so that i live the dream instead of prepping myself for a night terror if plane heartless. Sad.

Let me spend the next few hour doing what i have been doing the last few days hopping that listening to Justin Timberlake... not the other lesbian man child J.B... Mirror blares in the buds that are my earphones, take it away Justin...

Aren't you somethin' to admire, cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
 Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me...

Nekh.