2015 so far...

I like this year... May be flying the coup before hatching but am having a great time.


So far... Most things have gone alright to great. I am going to start from the very beginning... I had a great 1st of January.... Had a nice situation with a guy I thought was absolutely out of my league. Which was awesome... But silly me, I did not get his contacts. It was awesome to get all my butterflies up n going... Yeah me!


Another awesome thing... Mmmmm. Oh,I had a really great interview about over a week ago. Thumbs up, If all goes as planned in my head... I get the job and I will be sorted for life! Nice pay, good insurance... I could pay my students loans... Travel! Set up a savings plan for my little minions to be... 😁. That would be awesome... Patience...


Oh I called it... Okay I called it to my family and friends... Still counts. Dakota J's career. I remember I was like... "This shades thing may either break this chic's career or totally skyrocket it." It seems like things went toward the positive for her. Even before the release of the film... She has become an almost household name bagging nice collection of roles my fav is her in Need for Speed.... Love the brunette by the way... Totally makes her eyes pop...if u have no idea what am talking about... Pick up a magazine... Relax, you work toooooo hard.... Or... You are just not in the know. It okay... All God's people. I will not judge you.


Another awesome thing is that I am about to start my project for the masters degree that am doing... When I finish course work this March... Doors will begin to open finally and I gotta say I feel very blessed to be able to do this now and at this age. Am glad that my family has supported me all this way and I can't wait to repay a favour.


This year has just began and we still got 11 months to take a risk like Dakota J, meet someone like I did and not mess it up by not taking his number, appreciate family and friends... Mend broken relations... Plan smart , live, and love. Don't let this near infinite window of opportunities pass you by.


Nekh.

Big Ass Can of Warms

As a child who comes from a broken home I have come to learn that every time my parents get together... Shit literally goes down.
A can of seriously smelly rotten gag inflicting warms is let loose and I wonder why.
More than once I have prided myself of being a civil being but my polished.... Or sort of polished nature goes out the window and I wonder... Do I fall in the same bracket, the bracket of the likes that can never let go of the past... Those still haunted by their pain... This still scalding in fires of foregone relationship... Is the ex that much of a pain in the ass or is it just human nature to stick to what hurts rather than remember all the good times. We claim to love to be happy but always aim at the underclass... Machete in hand ready to battle even when none is there.
I have come to learn a thing or two from my large, dysfunctional family, utterly annoying family, it will never be perfect... I just have to learn to let go of the past and forget as much as I forgive.
Nekh.

Hey guys,
Welcome to 2015. I take this opportunity to wish you all a happy new year.
My year started with a bang! Literally... I started this year on the sandy beaches of Diani... Crossed at least three things off my bucket list in a morning... I gotta say am achieving dreams this year!
I trust your year will be awesome. Best of luck.
Nekh.

Letter to Nairobi

Dear Nairobi,

I  am scared, angry, bewildered and utterly shell-shocked! I can not believe that my own country med would treat their sister as they have been treated in the past couple of weeks. is this how we want to be know n to the rest of the world, I swore that I would never take an Embassava again but what does that do apart from remove food from families of those that treat my sister wrong, true; MY DRESS MY CHOICE, but what does that do for me if i have no power to take control of that that happens to me outside the world of pen and paper and words printed on shirts and ideas in my head.

Ladies, before we run to the streets to justify what we wear, we need to take a chill pill sit down and think, take back the power that has been taken for us for years since time immemorial. Power that we need to survive this war... because I can hear them... can you... the battle drums, the cries of my sisters as the fought for their rights. If we want to win, we need to reclaim that that is ours. Reclaim the power that we need to take a stand. Ladies, go to school, get your papers right, get your business right, get your affairs in order, get your man on your corner... and then when your all set, rush out and scream till your lungs give out about the right to dress as you please... tell me, do you think that our Fine First-lady could be undressed for what she wears, and in public? ... NO! And why is that?! because she has power, the kind of power that we mere kawa girls do not have, see why I say get your affairs right.... So do not be scared to go out, dress respectably and they will respect you, and when you can stand tall and not blink in a stare down with the opposite sex, you will be ready to fight this war.

Men who rip women's clothes off, this part here is for you. You who act all knowing of morals and what not... you are shallow and deprived. Your treat her like crap because you wish you had her, you wish you had her for she would never let you come an inch of her, for that is how low she thinks off you... and for this, see if the Good Lord will let you have a woman half what she is, while you and your friends count demeaning tabs, she will be counting survival tabs... and there is nothing that you can do to tear down a woman who has survived. Wait fro the woman to rise above you and see if you can sill play judge and jury. I can assure you... things are about to change in Nairobi, you WAIT AND SEE!

Forgive my bluntness but it had to be done, for I will always take my sister's side.

Nekh

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The Unlikely

I am a coward at best and a golden girl at worst
I resound to the thundering tattoo in pitch on my skin
the world has shaped me as so

I never go to battle, I am ethereal as can be
I never win a war, so don't call me to war
Unless you have a reason to loose

I bop my head to the rhythm of the mad
I called myself insane once
but then I realized that I was just weird

I broke it free, then ran for fear of catching it
I never held a butterfly in my hand
For I feared I may crush it

I never spoke too slow for you to understand
I never held your hand enough
You never walked my way again

I guess I get the reasons that we claimed
I 'duced' you and waved us away
We sure were odd, may never have worked

Its freedom that we claimed
I would stand with you
If you but just take me again
I will fight till broken n bored
for that I will fight an eternal war

See my courage, a fine rare jewel now
Amazing huh... sure from your point of view
See us set the pace
See us win this night

Nekh 

Being Human.

We are simple creatures.... we crave; love, visibility, respect... or hate, invisibility and being feared, to feel deep... but however much we would claim to be deep as the sea, we are shallow deprived beings. We care about things that do not really matter and those that matter we turn away from like the plague... but not to worry that is what makes us human.

Being human means feeling the sun on your skin... smiling when given a gift... loving the good life. What's the difference between a machine and you... loads! But best of all you feel. that is fact that makes you human.

Oh... the rules of decorum, are they just deprived ideologies meant to guide you... sorry control you, to manipulate your actions so as to forge a better human... one that is socially aware, and not to forget responsible... you want to leave free like a bird, no...no... no... why should you, what makes you think that you deserve to be free, what makes you think you are worthy, have you been mean to any one this week... or today? or kicked a cat just cause you could, or insulted someone or whatever... or have you judged someone this week... tell me how do you feel...

See all am trying to say is, if you are mean, do you really believe that whatever ill comes your way you do not deserve?! Life is all peachy if you want it to be, I should know... ask me. So despite our preset notions on being human we should stop rushing toward fulfillment of personal bliss and aim to be better humans, we owe the world that much... between the human race and the monkeys, lets be honest, we sure have effed up this world enough by now... I am worried of the generations to come.

Nekh.

A Little

A LITTLE

A little urbane man lived,

A little too perfect, potent,

Large rivers flowed, climate immaculate,

Gift from Mother Nature, life.

A little beauty in edge,

A little too unique for man,

Large eye stare at the man in the rover,

Gifts from Mother Nature, bounty.

A little too clean, Methane will do,

A little chopping, packing and shipping,

Large holes, howls of depreciation,

 Large barrels, dry throats, climate changing,

Curse for Mother Nature, drought.

A little rivulet, man wishes,

A little burnt out man is,

Large eyes lost in sorrow, climate changed,

Curse for Mother Nature, Hunger.

A little AID,

A little too late,

Large dead eyes rot in the Sun,

Curse for Mother Nature, DEATH.

Sandra Nekh